Hi, my name is Adam ^.^

I am in my early 40’s, and in 2024 I was diagnosed with ADHD. This was added to my original list of mental health issues such as anxiety, depression, and intrusive thoughts. Fun times!
My life has always been very difficult, like many peoples, to navigate. I could never understand why people found certain things, if not all things, so easy to do. They never seemed to care about possible outcomes, getting things wrong, and not having to plan every little detail! It also didn’t help that I am interested in almost everything, and jumping from one hobby to the next.
My life is just a whirlwind of over-thinking, and not getting a lot done because of it.

But, this is where things are going to change.
My plan for 2025 is to focus on becoming a productive member of society. To find ways to focus, or atleast use my mental health as an asset, rather than a hinderance.

I have been out of work for a few years now, after a full on breakdown. During that time, I have tried to work doing jobs like labouring, and landscaping, and have always ended up with mental burnout. These jobs have been with people that I know or my family knows.
Because of this, I have become a house husband… with issues.
My breakdown wasn’t my first, but was by far the worst, that just snapped any system I had made in my brain for helping me through the day to day. It was so bad that I couldn’t leave the house. Even standing in the garden was crippling for me. Over time this has eased off and now I am a lot better, but still worse off than before.

At the end of 2024 I began planning my comeback. My family and friends have been wonderful, and my wife has taken on a lot of burdens, like being the sole person who earns a wage. I see her struggling and it breaks my heart.
It’s now time for me to start working towards supporting this family once more. To be the main breadwinner, and for my wife to be able to cut back.

To do this though I need to dive into research mode, work out how my brain ticks, and find new ways to do things that will keep me as productive as possible.
To make life easier, I have been spending time thinking about my true passions and if I can lean on them to earn some pennies. Luckily for me it is Graphic Design. I studied it at college, which was a nightmare, as there was very little structure, meaning that I always left things to the last minute and did a half assed job of it. I have since dabbled with it, making posters, tickets for events, etc, but on a very low scale for local events/clubs.
Now, I am going to start from scratch, and actually study the subject, learn the programs properly (the public domain versions as they are free), and set myself projects.
I will also need to improve my English language skills, as English is beyond me (never had a dyslexia test, but the doctor thinks it is possible), to help with writing this blog. And lets not forget that I need to learn how to use wordpress and build my site from the ground up.

Now for the point of me creating this blog/site.

This Site will be a place for me to track my journey, to log down information and resources that I have found helpful, and to hopefully be a place for others to visit, to find help and inspiration to improve their lives, whether they have mental health issues or not.
It may also give people who know others with mental health issues some insight into why they do things the way they do, or why they are struggling with tasks that seem easy to most.
I have plans to review things like books that are deemed as amazing for improving your life, and see if they are any good for neurodivergent people.

I have many other ideas swirling around my brain (like always) but I don’t want to get ahead of myself.

For now, I will leave it there, and thank you so much for taking the time to read this. I hope you will join me on this journey! Apologies for any grammatical errors… I’m working on it.

Adam

P.S This has taken me around 4 hrs to write, due to having too much to say, trying my best not to go off on a tangent, and general distractions lol